Amulek the Vampire pg1

Willing but Unknown

My pride suffers from a multitude of unpardonable heart aches and sin. Love and an armful of compassion is like torture rendered upon a trusting soul. And in time, I find this crime, that was so sorely inflicted upon my mind instilling pure delight: Ecstasy to a broken man pleading for the pain. Pray thy love filter through and guide me into this glorious reign. I was made to bleed and for this I long to dream. Although sometimes I feel like a million tattered lives in this demented sleep. It is enough to drive me to extinction.I do believe that many souls are born without tears. Inside this heaven I fear I do not live to die but am utterly dying to hear my memories coursing through these veins, begging to be changed with hands that have altered time, but still I remain the same. I was made to bleed and for this I long to dream.

An excerpt from the diary of Amulek the Vampire

Some men have never been boy's

I know my death was foretold
But where were you when I died
When my withered essence began to unfold
And the lady sorrow became my loving bride
I loved an idea, maybe a naive illusion
But my childhood needs and your wants collided
And the end result brought confusion
Leaving my mind untimely misguided
Where were you when I fell apart
When hope clawed at my seams
And exposed a closed heart
Your actions I no longer redeem
I lost the frame, my flame, that glorious spark
And while they scream and dream at my dreaded requiem
You shall find my mind and soul is tainted altogether dark
But where were you when I died
When I was lonely and crying
Because demons preyed upon my mind
leaving scars with all their spying
And while they sliver down my sleeve
I failed to breathe but not to see
And as I speak I start to scream
Where were you when I needed faith
When I needed a mentor
And got nothing more than a wraith
This life is hopeful but full of despair
Like my heart aching within the break
I have no remorse and without a doubt not a care
Shed no tears now for your lost time's sake
Where were you when needed the most
When I sacrificed my soul
And became a ghost
I except no reason nor any excuse
And I condemn for the rape of my time
And all of the secluded abuse
Within my nightmares you perpetrated the worst crime
Where were you when I was on my knees
Begging for a divine gift if you please
One moment for you to look at me
Am I a blessing or a disease

By Dade Ripley
Inspired by my old man

Wind and Soul

Under a grove of ancients

I find my truest peace

Their shelter vibrant with life

All the worries of the world begin to cease

Closing my eyes I begin to cry

I look round about, from the ground to the sky

In humility I ask, please can I stay

With a rustle of leaves they reply

Thy soul and countenance is kindly pure

And thy heart is good and not likely to sway

But without the challenges of strife

None of this is worth your stay

Pity

My pleas of agony scar the eyes of life

Tempting even the makers lies

With a smirk and a jagged hallo

I Plunge into my grateful demise

And in the deep dark where guilt lye's

I realize there is no control

On death's roster, list, his toll

I pay in full with my dreams

Someone open my mind so I can scream

Creation and then the Storm

The gift of God lies in my hands

Worn and old the story still stands

With this sight I become a man

Dimly holding onto your plan

Red Ribbon Moments

Thank God for the amber sky

And the beauty I felt within her eyes

The red ribbon moments which weaved her hair

into saintly hands and a life changing stare

Thank God for the coldest of nights

When a lonely fire found his only sight

Perhaps it was her soft heart beating

Or the sense of time fleeting

That inspired every song

Springing forth from our palms

Thank God for her will and might

To pursue love with pure sight

That would make an angel from the night

Fall deep into her effervescent twilight

Thank you my cherished one

For the morning of chance

That stole the breath of time

And sealed your fate with mine

Inspired By My Lovely Wife......I love you dear and I always will.

Drastic Reality and then Silence

When did I change

Just how far will I run

I've smothered myself in realness

A conformity I could not resist

Maybe it was a certain bliss

A flurry of life like intelligence

In this reality I miss

I am responsable now

Mature and dedicated

But dry in the mind

Losing uniqueness to this crime

When did I sell out

Just how far will I run

When can I come home

How far have I run

Deaf Only Hear What They Want To See

Heavy are the clouds flowing through my mind tonight

Daring time to ease the pain of life

Although the constant days of disgrace are over

We are still little more than nothing

Running fearful of the pain

All that our memories will bring

We are bathed in your iniquities

Cleansing the body of all emotions

And behind this fearfull face you see

Lies death waking inside of me

Pleading to be set free

The anguish pours like tears melting from the sky

Drenched in this unabashed guilt am I

falling to my knees thinking, screaming

Kill me please and realease me from this disease

But we are real tonight

And I am lucid in this deprived state

My mind swimming through strife

Decaying,pushing my will to break

The torture often hurts

And the fear in our heart clentches

But I will not run untill we become

Knight's Lament

In a deep meadow
Where the blood still stands
The carrion beackons
For I am a stained man
Bearing the thief's pale lie
That sells the very fabric of life
I hang my head and leave my sword
Buried within the bounds of strife
With the god's displeased
I once again escape this plight
Laughing and jeering with ease
I search for another gamble
An old fool's delight

Tender light

There is a tender dream

With hands like thieves

Cradling me into a life

Wearing Love's lie

With a passive eye

Redeemed

Blood stained hands in desperate need
Of a Requiem from this dreaded disease
Echo past the stir of a smile
To hear the fall of the tiniest seed
Give praise to the lord of change
That he may have mercy
And shake the foundation of my reason
For all of this day's treason
Allowing unbroken flight to my tears
That my soul may remain
unscathed throughout all my years

Dream seeker

In a deep meadow

Where the blood still stands

The carrion beckons

For I am a stained man

Living a thief's pale lie

Weaving dreams

Stealing breath and selling

The very fabric of life

And with the god's displeased

I leave the sword within

The bounds of strife

Once again I escape this plight

In search of another gamble

An old fools delight

Navigator of my MIND

Hate breeder,grief bearer,navigator of my mind

I breathe out while you breathe in

Stealing my very essence from the cold of night

Like little deaths inside our mind

Sweet innocence of children's tears

Tainted upon the blood of thy brocken heart

Tick tock the clock is slow

Instant passes, memory flashes

Time is oh so quick

Dream seaker, lie maker

Navigator of my mind

Disarrayed perception

Sweet life made from deception

Watch as the young suckle on the mother's perspretion

Tears of the rose are like diamonds

That fall into the hand of man without want

Nasty fornicator, tiny heart breaker

Navigator of my mind

Love without need leads to lust

Breathe heavy from the belly of your prey

Wounds so deep into lamentation and inside of hallucinations

In need of the continuation of masquerading

Words spoke with fire

All this that I have become

I am truly sorry

Lust giver, love taker

Navigator of my mind

Wrote by Dade Vulcian

Let Me Cry

Painfully clear is my holy crusade

Shackled to the chains of an endless change

Doubtful of this pact, a deal I never made

With agony my verdict is rendered

And a crime upon my mind is justly committed

Lifted up by the kindness of grace

Twist and turn through the hate and strife

To see the small beads of faith dripping from my face

Trying to laugh but my soul denies me life

Forever recovering from memories of you

A martyred purity when all I sought was truth