Death

In the great passing moments of old
When the dark day was grim and long
And the brightest night was still cold
The weary people sang a dreadful song
Of a tall, dark stranger dressed in black
And the sadness held within his dark eyes
His life stolen and never to be given back
The old ones say he is death's disguise

Gods Gift is the Night

The day dies slowly as the moon rises high above
And while I can't hardly wait for the blessed night
For I have scampered to and fro in search of kind love
God created darkness to find peace from the light
I close my eyes hoping just to escape this hard life
While pain and anguish slowly seem to melt away
Bliss settles like morning mist to hide the days strife
Here in the world of dreams I am lost to the sway
In this realm I can be a hero, villain or a goodly king
I rob banks, save a thousand lives or kiss the queen
I can do all of this without moving one rusted bed spring
But alas the night ends with birds chirping to a sunlit scene

Men Like We

Men like we have to tow the damn line
And the cost of it might not matter at all
We don't sit idly by waiting for a sign
And we jump when you choose to fall
Men like we act without thought of our life
And we don't have the luxury of your luck
We don't think twice about life and its strife
We like to solve problems with 00 Buck
Men like we take all your shit with a smile
We will take that flack because we can
And its us you need to go that extra mile
Our creed is very simple, I am a man

To my Love

Hello my darling wife, I am thankful for you
The brain tumor, Avn of the hip and depression
I was all but lost and it was you that I turned to
You have enriched my life, that is my confession
When my life slowly crumbled to the ground
And the past caused small beads of faith to drip
You dried my tears and would not let me drown
Our love has never allowed me to lose my grip
You have been there through the ups and downs
And before you my dear, I was nothing but a boy
That is until I saw you in a beautiful flowing gown
I became a man and you have always been my joy
It has been ten years of unrelenting pain for me
But you bring happiness when tears come to my eyes
And my conditions may bring me to my knees
But I know you will always be there to help me rise

Aliens Unalienated

Our universes parallel and we are the same
Why are we able to speak to one another
Where may I hope to place this ungodly blame
You call it a gift but it is my horrible curse brother
And there are days when I wish I could fly
But then again, you already knew that about me
Heroes like the two of us can live but never die
Don't you see my good friend I long to be free
The connection we share should be rent in twain
Our worlds are safe and you still have the joy of her
I'm losing my mind and your love is my pain
That dreadful day is a memory that never blurs
You got to keep yours but my love is just thought
And when you talk to yours, I can hear her voice
That beautiful parallel sound of hers is all I've got
This should not be yours alone, its our choice
And yes I know, one day we may be needed again
But when you kiss her, I can taste my loves lips
I am held a prisoner of fates lonely desperate chains
In 20 days those chains will break at the total eclipse
You may know me no better than I know you
But we have both wished that we could soar so very high
And on the day of our death we shall see a glorious view
To end this, one of us must fall but both shall die

A Marine's Tale of Courage

There are those that choose to live and die
And most of them are lost in a long story
Without ever asking the question.....why
They just tow the line, real men of glory
That protect the innocent from the unkind
They do not do this job for fortune or fame
Its done for the oath and their peace of mind
For God, family and my country they exclaim
And to the naysayers they reply, soldier up
Become a tried gear in the green machine
Bleed war and drink greedily from deaths cup
Stand tall and proudly proclaim, I'm a Marine

Wired Zombie

I slowly awake with the memories of you
Desperately I hide my eyes from the light
But still I am unable to shake off the blues
I have been purified through the ancient rites
And as I stand up to dust off the old dreams
I feel eyes searching for hope within my soul
I see you there but I can't hear your screams
There was a time when I had total control
But now I live and breathe to please another
My death shrouds are saturated in torment
The flames of his desire can't be smothered
Creeping and stalking without natures consent
I belong in the cold ground but still I stand
I am the undead blight of another mans will
I smell blood and await my masters command
As my mind slips away I realize, tonight I will kill

Will Chapter 2 Verse 1

Boy, clean your filthy, dirty room
Or I shall lose my frigging temper
You know how to clean I presume
No, all you can do is sob and whimper
I suppose its why your family left you
It's because you are a dirty sissy boy
You may be smart and that will do
For I will pull your strings my little toy
I'm small and afraid but I am also smart
And yes I am alone but never lost
I will find some way into her heart
I will make it here no matter the cost

Will Chapter 1 Verse 5

Its night time and I am ready to sleep
I fall upon my knees and I thank God
For the pictures that they let me keep
I'm sorry Father I'm just a bit flawed
I've been put out here on my own
Left to walk the road without a soul
No one knows where love has gone
And I often wonder will I ever be whole
I am sorry Father for only thinking of me
But why did my family leave me here
Stand my son and let these problems be
Stop your weeping and lose your fear
You are compassionate, loving and kind
Your family loves you but are lost as well
And everyone just needs time to unwind
So close your eyes and let your love swell
I am living in a boarding home without care
Its hard to except the truth at the age of ten
I feel so angry, alone and always scared
But Lord I trust you, In Jesus name Amen

Will Chapter 1 Verse 4

I wake to find my tender heart still beating
My young body cannot, no will not move
Fear creeps in fast and I feel like retreating
But I will not because I have something to prove
Time trickles down to a mind numbing crawl
And as I struggle to pry open my tired eyes
I realize I am just a child, weak and small
Cold fingers twitch but still I cannot rise
My skin awakens with the sound of a voice
That moves across me like a horde of flies
Strange words fall on deaf ears for I have a choice
The hatred of it drips onto me like unkind lies
I scream aloud but no one can hear my pleas
My eyes flutter open and I can finally see
But the icy denial causes my blood to freeze
The voice chants and there is nowhere to flee
Memories pierce the soul with quite trickery
And my young mind is shocked and reeling
I'm lost in transient thoughts of love and misery
All while I lose my gracious sense of feeling
People from the past and the present, all mourners
I call out to them but sound does not escape my lips
As darkness creeps towards me from every corner
Fear claws at my inner core with a desperate grip
With all the will I can summon I call out a name
Lord help me, release me from this evil sight
Instantly the weight was removed from my delicate frame
The day was mine but was I able to comprehend this new light

Will Chapter 1 Verse 3

I awoke from a night fraught with tears
I am beaten and removed from myself
The man child has been baptized in fear
And knows of nothing but frailty itself
Unknown voices lash out from the light
Calmly I stand and look upon the face
That holds my little body so utterly tight
Please, please grant me thy saving grace
With gritted teeth I hold my head down
This lady of age likes to feel empowered
For now I will allow her to hold the crown
But one day her soul will be devoured

Will Chapter 1 Verse 2

The child holds the blessed gun

He cries softly and wonders why

He is alone and loved by no one

Who would care if he were to die

So the child paces around the room

Thinking about the love of his gun

And the abuse that led to his doom

His new caretakers have just begun

To play their games of madness

And he doesn't have much ammunition

How will he overcome this sadness

With gun to his head in final admonition

He pulls the trigger and frees his mind

But the gun is just a picture of his kin

They gave him to creatures of the grind

So I burned the pic with the will of a grin

Tina My Lovely Star

Starlight please don't cry tonight

Dry those tears and close your eyes

Starlight we will leave the bright

And find love within the darkest sky

Starlight please hold on for a while

You bring me joy within your shine

Starlight let me see your lovely smile

So I will know that you are truly mine

Will Chapter 1 Verse 1

Father God gave me a soul to save

And the Holy Ghost gave me a voice

Jesus gave me life after the grave

But my will gave me the final choice

Pain Chapter 5 Verse 5

I have cried my very last tear

And now I only weep in dreams

Since I have nothing left to fear

I forsake life and live in a scream

2,629,740 minutes of my shame

1,825 days of a will about to wane

260 weeks of bone grinding pain

5 years, the blight has has its reign

I die a thousand times in the rain

But I shroud my mind with faith

Begging God to release my chains

For I am a former shell, I am a wraith

2,629,740 minutes of the grind

1,825 days of waiting for peace

260 weeks of losing my mind

5 years, I have begged for release

It hurts to even move my hands

I've repented to my last breath

And Lord, I will do as you command

But I am, I have cried and I await my death

The Anger of a Just God

I am he who is without name or water
I care not for the lilies or the idea of mercy
I am the great I am of all your slaughter
I point the finger to you and your heresy
I tried to teach you about love and trust
I saw you kill my carpenter and my ghost
I loved you but balance the scales I must
I will herd my dear lambs to the fiery roast

Sober

This day my sober mind is troubled and reeling
Seconds gain power as moments in the mind
I've lost the eye of three and a sense of feeling
But my thoughts are explosive for I am confined

As I Shit

As I shit I often sit and wonder why
My bones are broken down oh so tired
And my eyes will bleed out but never cry
My heart beats slower for I am expired
I laugh hard even as I hurt within the strain
Heavily pushing but still no nuggets or pearls
I live for the moment and leave no stains
Young. broken and lost within the mighty swirl
Be glorious with our small amount of time
And blame no one for the crime you wrought
Free yourself from hate and open your mind
Lastly remember shit or get off the pot

An American Warlock's Jest

Meth infused capillaries fuel my beating chest
They flip the electric switch but I did not cower
I defy gravity and scream in agony,I am the jest
Electricity and meth fuse and I become a power
The rusted springs and chains let loose and bust
With my second chance I rip the wings from the fly
And I kill the flea with one well aimed knife thrust
I stomp them down with my boots and look to the sky
As I give the enchantment I reach for my bag of dust
I take pleasure in the ritual as I give fire to the spoon
I corrupt thy dreams but my enemies will not awake 
Till morning comes it is thy dreams that I shall take 
And I will leave in place this hellish dark nightmare
 But rest in peace my enemy until after you are scared

With the spell complete I become a drain to your drip

But as the room turns dark I see the shadowed hands

If enemies of mine they shall turn to dust within my grip

As they take me I realize I am but a grain of sand 
They have my spoon and wand but I am a man driven
Beyond a little life of fact, fiction or illusions
And they are late for in this hour a victor has risen
I am he who is to devour you and your petty delusions

Shadowed Hell

Somewhere under the starry night
Shadows move like deaths blight
Deviously fast and unseen by most
Sometimes they can get too close
With ghastly claws they reach out
And scratch at my wits as I shout
But the sinister glimmers fade away
Just in time for the birth of a new day

Loves Clutch

My soul catches fire within her touch
She is the one good choice I ever made
I was snared by deaths lonely clutch
She took the oath and never betrayed
Death was consumed and I am in tears
For I am still alive and greatly in love
With a wild eyed vixen who holds my prayers

The Tree of Me

Life is young and I am the small seed
But I can grow into a mighty oak tree
That shows mercy and love in my deeds
Will my fruits of labor feed others for free
Life is hard and I am a little leafy bud
But can my roots grow deep and strong

The Love of a Woman

Why must I feel this way
Can u make the pain go away
I just want one peace filled day
I am lost and alone in the sway
I can't give anymore of my heart
And today I want to come apart
But my wife's love is glorious art
And each morn I receive a fresh start

U with the Voice and Me without a Kiss

Love has blissfully fell upon my ear
As words dripped from her lips to lust
Eyes wander to and fro for the sincere
Lovers that never meet is most unjust

The Infinite Humanity of Man

I reach out for the glory of a saint
But my wings are stained and torn
I could be a holy man if I had restraint
But alas my soul is tainted and worn
It seems I fall into empty temptations
Where evil is inflicted upon my mind
My good heart is lost in translation
Innocence is a trait held by the blind
I could hold out for the love of hope
If only I could remember how to sing
Can time teach me what it is to cope
Or maybe I could buy cleaner wings

Father Where have ya Been

Father where have ya been
As the darkness crawls over me
Your light could of cured my sin
But ya never heard my pleas

You don't have to lie to me
The little lie within the liar is thee
Go ahead and try to lie to me
I lie no more for I am free

A thousand hands wash over me
I laugh as I become a disease
I look in the mirror and finally see
That you and me will never be


You don't have to lie to me
The little lie within the liar is thee
Go ahead and try to lie to me
I lie no more for I am free


I smile through the beautiful lies
But live within the crooked grin
Blue skies reveal tear less eyes
And a life of pain cradled within


You don't have to lie to me
The little lie within the liar is thee
Go ahead and try to lie to me
I lie no more for I am free

I'm a child that's been beat down
I'm the man who got kicked around
I've been hit and I've been laid out
But I'm still here and dying to shout


You don't have to lie to me
The little lie within the liar is thee
Go ahead and try to lie to me
I lie no more for I am not free

Never say Goodbye to the Blues

Well it's sure nuff a beautiful rain
All along my damned dirty grey
And the bright sun just came to stain
The dreariness of my downed day
Ya know that's when I come to life
I pray and dance in the great water
To wash away all of today's strife
Until the sun brings back the slaughter

Rain Rain Come Again For Today

My it is a beautiful rain
All along the broadened grey
And the sun just can't stain
The dreariness of a great day
The people all come to life
To dance in the great water
And wash away all the strife
Until the sun brings back the slaughter

Forgive Us

Life is beyond fact, fantasy or fiction
And lying makes the threat very real
But what are we without conviction
Just ordinary people without appeal
Now we shall lose our taste and touch
For we can't keep refusing the rights
Weaknesses hold us up like a crutch
Open your eyes before we lose the light

Pain Chapter 5 Verse 4

I am the child without a father
Who will help me become a man
Will anyone even want to bother
Who will help me with all my plans
You were so alone when you left
I still cry when I hear a bell chime
Most didn't noticed but we all wept
Your estranged daughter found time
To come and say her last goodbyes
She's pretty this new sister of mine
She has your smile and even your eyes
And don't worry mom will be fine
Who will I turn to for the answers
I know I am 28 but I am still lost
When will we have a cure for cancer
I'll make you proud no matter the cost

Pain Chapter 5 Verse 3

My time is a drain and I'm in the slow drip
One where I and my sanity has lost its grip
We shout a kiss and cry out to no avail
I bleed without color and breathe in hell
I dream for just a minute without drama
But I know I'm hurt and in some real trauma
Today doctors don't get paid in dreams
And by nightfall I lead the scream regime
So I light the pipe and ignite the green rights
And I await my last rites as I take in the blight

Pain Chapter 5 Verse 2

Everything is dead now but the pain
All thought is vanquished by the flame
Its a steady pounding, eye gouging thud
I drift alone inside of this painful flood
People are noticing and I am so tired
I feel so out of date like I am expired
No one can explain this or my poor sight
And now I find my step dad died last night

Pain Chapter 5 Verse 1

Like a jagged knife in my chest
My girl has an unkind request
She wants me to give up dope
Quit all drugs and live on hope
Icy sweat trickles down my spine
If I live by the rules she'll be mine
Or live like swine without my girl
Well now do I twirl, whirl or hurl

Pain Chapter 4 Verse 5

I love her in every possibly way
She is funny, smart and a little fey
We've dated a couple of season's
And my emotions have no reason
But the pain in my head won't cease
And God has no plans of release
I snort meth and drink with the bulls
She knows the trigger she has to pull
And she is capable but not quite ready
For our relationship is new and unsteady
She loves me too and hates the damn gun
But she knows something has to be done

Pain Chapter 4 Verse 4

I have lived through many years of abuse
Smoked the finest kill to chill the blues
And still the dreaded memories let loose
Live or die is the mantra I had to choose
There's a pain in my head and its too much
Maybe death is finally giving me his soft touch
I met a goddess and I only want to praise her
My eyes have turned bad for she is just a blur
 I like her but my head is about to hemorrhage
She is so cute and that gives her all the leverage
I'm tired all the time and my eyes are about to pop
I got high to cope but now I want the pain to stop
I went out with her and she gave me a kiss
My past vaporized and in her I know only bliss

To Love or Not To Love

I don't know why
She can only mention love at midnight
Or where she wonders off to in the twilight
But the birds and the bees can never teach
How to touch the heart that's out of reach
I don't know why
She shy's away when I try to hold her tight
Or why her heart saddens before morning light
But the birds and the bees only chirp and hum
And no matter how much I try we never become
I don't know why
She believes in the danger of love at first sight
Or what I can do to make everything alright
But the birds and the bees will buzz and sing
And our love will flourish or just be a fling

A Wild Tale of Courage

Now and then freedom is bought with a bang
And like I said before son AWOL is treason
Semper Fidelis do or die but my men will not hang
So turning from the sea and the madness of reason
I find a new position perched high upon a cliff
And my M1903 A4 Springfield is their best hope
I quoted the general orders especially the fifth
I see my target through the cross hairs of my scope
On three the trigger will pull and the blood will run
My boys will react and our hands will drip the gore
But my Marines will make it home to see their sons
For we are men and we are good to the corps

Mother

The first person I learned to trust
Baby boy cloths only for I was a must
But the sailor suit was a little unjust
You gave me love when I was in the pits
Even when I acted like a little shit
You have always been there for me
And nothing can compare with thee
Thanks for not naming me Bob or Tom
Davids cool and I love you mom

Pain Chapter 4 Verse 4

Austina

My lovely wife is like fine art
With the voice of a golden lark
She spoke and touched my heart
And my soul came alive with a spark
Her caramel eyes expose my frailty
And kindness is always upon her face
She gives all of herself with subtlety
With her I have found my saving grace

Pain Chapter 4 Verse 3

I wake up in a cold hard sweat
Memories cling to me like death
Free from hell but not the threat
That lives in the lie of your breath
Years later I can still feel the bruises
Hardly worth it is the culprits excuses
Hope is forsaken within my own sleep
The demons come when I count sheep

Pain Chapter 4 Verse 2

I burn through lovers like trash
And my heart is the color of ash
My soul flickers with a tiny flame
I'm in love with drugs and shame
I take the knife and dream in red
But the cowards fear is never dead
Its the lying smile of a sick lamb
Only God knows I am truly a scam

Pain Chapter 4 Verse 1

It has been more than a bad night
Sixteen years since I seen the man
I thought by now he'd outgrown his plight
A life changed by the loss of his clan
I excepted all of his grand apologies
I even allowed myself to shake his hand
For me there is no method of psychology
Or medicine that can cure the unplanned
I gave him the words he wanted to hear
From son to father with little devotion
All those many years cannot disappear
And I am a vast array of inhuman emotion
Another sixteen years without a bother
This time it was my choice to be a man
I always hurt and he is still not my father

Taste the Drip

I'm a maddened man in twisted skin
I Tossed the plan with a silver grin
When and Where and Why and What
Lost hope that wants to love the cut
Wanting to sink my teeth deep within
If only one could get lost in the spin
What and Where and Why and When
To bloody digest the live shit of sin

A Dead Mans Plea

I felt I would always hold on
Change my life before it was gone
So I carry my thirty years of scars
Like a pocket full of silver stars
And its not your fault but mine
For the sins I left behind
And I've lost all but sunshine
But its been one more good time
And just before my bell could chime
Lets stop thinking about my crime
Yes I have a terrible brain tumor
I am not funny but full of ill humor
And its not your fault but mine
For the sins I left behind
And I've lost all but sunshine
But its been one more good time
Please stop your crying my dear
For your faith bleeds out in tears
I love you and I can beat their odds
For our faith is strongest in God
And its not your fault but mine
For the sins I left behind
And I've lost all but sunshine
But its been one more good time
If the worst is to happen God I pray thee
Take the heart of my wife and set it free
That she may find joy in another's arms
And her life be long and without harm
And its not your fault but mine
For the sins I left behind
And I've lost all but sunshine
But its been one more good time

The Itch of an American Jest

Finished with the witch I grabbed my spoon
I felt the prick and was caught in a swoon
I saw the reflection of a flea before I was lost
And if there is a fly I have been double crossed
I awoke and found myself tied to rusty bed springs
Insanely I laughed as the flea revealed his sting
The fly finally spoke and asked how I had slept
Good and can I have a smoke before the next step
Soon my eyes would open and I would have the power
But still no victor could be crowned in this dark hour
Digging through my belongings the fly obliged me
And then explained how electricity shall set me free
Pain would allow them to have the wand and my death
But the fly didn't know my smoke was saturated in meth
As the Mexicans German threw the switch I wept
But soon I would have all of my wits and and my pep

The Only Way

The one and only way is the truth
A message for the old and the youth
Don't cover your weakness with anger
The violence of man only shows danger
They touch the body but never your soul
Only God can write upon the human scroll
But if you can get deep into your own center
You will know violence is from panicked embers
From frightened men who are in terrible pain
Then you will feel sorry for them and their shame
May you understand that mercy is not just for the weak
When they hurt you, I pray you turn the other cheek

Wedding Bells

The beautiful sound of wedding bells
Creates a lovely stirring in my heart
That reminds me of a similar spell
In which a man and a lady never part
My soul cried as she came down the aisle
There in a rose petal dress stood my Eve
The music in her brought to my face a smile
And I am thankful for all I am to receive
We sealed those special vows with a kiss
And for years I have held your hand in love
Your compassion has filled our life with bliss
I pray our love is protected by God above
The beautiful sound of wedding bells
Brought your endless love to a kind heart
That  reminds me I am lost in your spell
And I hope these two souls never ever part

To my darling wife,
I love you and I always will.

Tale of Courage

An old man once wove me a story
With tales of blood, guts and glory
Obediently I sat down and took heed
Lad let me tell you of life and my creed

I was in a bad way behind enemy lines
Stealthily hidden and waiting for the sign

The day would be over if they spotted me
Reluctantly I broke cover and ran for the sea
Each day I ask to be forgiven for what was done
As I reached my mark I heard the wails of my men
Sign given and pistol loaded I prepared for sin
On three a well designed trap will be sprang
Now and then freedom has to be bought with a bang

Pain Chapter 3 Verse 5

I love the green grassy smell of a cloak
And fanatically laughing at a stupid joke
Sad hearts will cure in a full pulled toke
The past disappears in the piney smoke
And the pain embraces the frayed light
But fear quietly fades away in the quake
While the stars have killed for their bright
I have found a way to never ever wake
In the grips of a sick maddened grind
I dropped a blot and freed my mind
Cold sweat trickled down my spine
And the Devil poked me with his tine
And still the pain embraces the frayed light
But fear quietly fades away in the quake
While the stars have killed for their bright
I have found a way to never ever wake
The taste of mushroom tea is divine
Lies slip a way and release the shine
The floor rises and the belly drops
God is found but we lack the chops
And the pain embraces the frayed light
But fear quietly fades away in the quake
While the stars have killed for their bright
I have found a way to never ever wake
The meth infused agony of life is bright
With lustful lips I chase the go fast light
Endless poetic dribble is scribbled rights
I am the hollow hero who lost his sight
And the pain embraces the frayed light
But fear quietly fades away in the quake
While the stars have killed for their bright
I have found a way to never ever wake
I dream of low places covered in snow
Its the blind nose that leads me to the glow
Twist the Ben, find your sin and say hello
Love drips and the soul will chase yayo
And the pain embraces the frayed light
But fear quietly fades away in the quake
While the stars have killed for their bright
I have found a way to never ever wake

Pain Chapter 3 Verse 4

I've chased away my darling soul
She said I was nothing but a hole
A man that would never be whole
Pain written across an old scroll
I could not say sorry so I just swore
She grew and I was a tedious chore
Life is precious but in me she saw war
I gazed at her and slammed the door
Never mind me and her I've old friends
My obsession with them can only cleanse
My pockets are full and I am here to spend
Enjoying the purest and devious of trends

Pain Chapter 3 Verse 3

I loved my love not just to love
But I loved her for the sake of love
Love could flourish if not for the vice
And the vice of my life was a dark vice
She hated my vice not just to hate
But to hate for the sake of my hate
I wallowed in the pain to feel the past
Pain lives in the mire and I am the past
I glorified my memories of use and abuse
Its the use of abuse that led to my abuse
I caved in on myself and was of no use
She abused and used for the sake of the use
I loved my love not just to love
She loved and left for the sake of love

To: Illumination or is it Ruination

Your prized gauntlet I had to turn down
Daft is thy name for I am already enlightened
And cursed is my feet upon the ground
My opened eye of three cannot be frightened
Let my warning be your wanton cry of mercy
I have no care for your movement or cause
Bother me twice and I shall commit heresy
My artistic muse is another mans hallowed law

Late Night Fright

Yesterday's dark I tasted the blight
The suffering was found in my slumber
Is glorifying the agony my second sight
Struck mad in the pain ridden thunder
The cold torture caused me to weep
And I was baptized within my thoughts
God is the jest and Death will not reap
I asked for help but it was all for naught
The Devil of Man offered a new design
Defiantly take pleasure from the afflictions
And our reckoning will come within time
You are undeniable pain without restriction
Writhing in the doubt I owned the silent night
For prides sake I am man in my anguish
I forsake Death and cry for my last rites
Its the lure of a scream I shall vanquish

KILLjoy

I am the lie on a jagged edge
Whispered to anyone on the ledge
I plunge myself into the deep night
And I laugh aloud with sincere fright

The Murder of Me

Twitching within a deep scare
No time for luck or kind prayers
Its the stalking sex type game
The one that brings only shame
Thoughtlessly bragging I digress
Hold on tight for it I shall digest
Lost in the shade of the chase
Night falls and there is no grace
From behind I feel the fingers
Deathly cold the touch still lingers
Fight or flight, take or escape
Once caught the kill takes shape
I allowed myself to touch its hair
Smothered in guilty love I feel bare
It has been gagged and tightly bound
It hopes but help will never be found
I want to hear it beg for my mercy
And then I shall commit the heresy
I am the dreaded fear that has purpose
With hidden blade I shall not be a carcass
I will shred the braided ropes that bind
And embody the frayed for I am the grind
My Death is his here but I shall survive
The killers bold gaze will never  thrive
My hope validated for my prey is sly
With all my power I gouge out the eyes
My fury and vengeance shall be vicious
The taste of death is wonderfully delicious

My only Prayer

Today people celebrate the deadly sins
Its what we do and where we've been
For this reason there is nothing to save
Let it wash away, cleaned in the wave
So life can be created and loved by the true
People allow faith, hope and charity to renew
Foster charity and let it seep from your skin
For it shall and can cover a multitude of sin

The Yearning

I can only bleed dreams
For I have tasted screams
I believe in the ancient lust
For I desire your love's trust
I have been the only heart
For I am Gods crying art

Love Lost Love

Its the embrace of love
The painful joy I can feel
A godly taste from above
I am the gracious appeal

The Wicked Kiss of the Witch and the Jest

The witch held death like a thousand lies
Her crooked wand flashed a vivid light
And her crow circled round about in the sky
The ground crawled with snakes and blight
I snapped the squatchs neck and got real
The death of the ape caused her lips to quiver
In my distraction she slapped me with zeal
And her wretched touch gave me a shiver
So into the river I tossed the silver spoon
She gasped in horror and cast a time spell
Moments passed and I awoke in a swoon
Lost in her arms I could taste the ladies smell
Near the moon I swelled in her sweet trance
Night after night I knew only bliss and grace
In a dream I saw the succubus and her dance
I took the spoon and stabbed her in the face
In the moment of her death I felt prying eyes
Standing with her wand I regained all my power
I wonder is the spy a Mexican flea or a German fly
All the same no victor is crowned in this hour

Pain Chapter 3 Verse 2

A million second hand glances away
I taste the last drop of mushroom tea
The sun melts into lovely rain as I sway
Wet fiery pelts of hell fall down on me
So I did not witness her untimely arrival
But I did stand in awe of the feisty banshee
My soul fled its cage in hopes of revival
Grasping at my wraiths tail I managed a plea
For she holds the keys to bliss or pain
But its the wormhole on the count of three
One...You are the twisted deviations bane
Two.. Your light and shine I take from thee
Three. You will never come out of this sane
I dreamed a scream and prayed for a gaze
I opened my eyes and she was missing
So I humble gave thanks to the lord of praise
Only to hear another dark voice hissing
If my fingernails had a perfect memory
How would I ever forget the gashes on my body
I lashed out as the demons hand felt treachery
I was in the nightmare of all I could embody
And the tea would give no clarity in the clash
The monster chewed at me until I was death
Soon my burnt corpse would be nothing but ash
One...I can take you and your breath
Two.. I will allow you to live if only you see
Three. You and I are endlessly bound
The lights kicked on and I was helped to my knees
Cries of anguish came from all who were around
And in the mirror I could see the culprit indeed was me

Pain Chapter 3 Verse 1

I have no dreams just a conscious mind
And I am lost within the dreaded gears of war
A child noticed only by the deaf and blind
An aged soul shadowed and full of gore
The man child prayed for a day of grace
Hope for the phrase did not turn the page
Another small bead of faith drips from the face
And sorrow drowned too late turns to rage
A decade of tears spent in the twilight of haze
I pack some hope in the pipe and ignite
Ready and willing to shake off the blue daze
I hold steady for I am the painful blight

Pain Chapter 2 Verse 5

The days of my youth are gone
And when I draw back the shades
I welcome the dark hollow dawn
But the bright refuses the frayed
Weapon in hand I spark the light
That brings solace through smoke
Love drifting down the veins excites
In the haze I fall under a dismal cloak
The years seem to crawl and  trickle
My pain is alive scratching at the surface
It seems fate is wild, crazed and fickle
I am still the boy scared and nervous

An Easter Ode

Thank you my darling brother Christ
For all that you have loved and gave
Is our treacherous life worthy of its price
Without pay we only have an empty grave
It's in the garden with your sacrifice of origin
For only God could sweat blood from the pore
Man would forget the truth in his own religion
Claiming sacrifice on the cross was the core
While his death on the tree was a necessary
And without that day we could never rise up
Taking our sin was courageous and legendary
Truly he was tested while he partook of that cup
Thank you Father for giving us your only son
We are genuinely sorry for the pain he endured
But with him and a little bit of hope our day is won
This Easter, may some of our souls be cured

Aprils Winner

Alas the days are gone in February
For Mr. Kimathi won with imagination
His poem is great and a win was necessary
Maybe my work needed a little translation
As I live, breathe, dream and stroll
All I want is to be a genius poet of note
And March went to the man with soul
For Mr. Robinson I only appreciate and dote
Now for April where no winner is yet clear
I Mr. Ammon promise to please and appease
Or just maybe one vote could equal one beer
Or I could just do the work and be at ease

For Us

Does anyone here remember the haze
And what we have said about rainy daze
Why here and what have we become
Does anyone feel washed up and numb
Where is the ear against the veiled wall
Lost is our fear for those who took the fall
Clear is the way and straight is our path
Gather courage and release our wrath

The Jest of a Squach Ape

No one knows the gamblers mind
But the squach had a heart of spite
And it was not your fault but the blind
So the squach ape held to me tight
Heads were squeezed in the grind
And we squared off into the bright
Now I'm not the red mushrooms bride
But I hold her as I await my last rites
Through fist, wild fury and the blight
I plucked the apes light from the lies
Noticeably shaken I am lost in the night
The war within released me from the guise
A witch appeared and death is in her sight
And still no victor can ever hope to rise

WE SHOULD HAVE CRIED 2

Did the child's tear have to fall
Sad the days must have been
It is leaders who start the brawl
Bombs fell and all was in a spin
The guilty laugh as they fill coffers
And the innocent  melt with a grin
Machine gun blood is the offer
Men lie and Georgia bares the chagrin
My God we should have at least cried
Can we not hear the howl of misery
Pleasures dictate and no one replied
Georgia is bones and mystery
War comes and we are subdued
Lost in our translation talking noise
With leaders whose ideas are skewed
Countries die while we play with our toys

WE SHOULD HAVE CRIED!

How far did the child's tear have to fall
Unreal and sad the days must have been
Two leaders and only one starts the brawl
Bombs fell and all was lost in a harrowing spin
The guilty have no cares as they fill their coffers
And the innocent must melt away in a wars grin
Machine gun blood is the only currency left to offer
So men shake hands and Georgia bares the chagrin
My God we should have tried or at the least cried
Are we so blind we no longer hear the howl of misery
Pleasures of the man dictated and no one replied
What will we do when Georgia is bones and mystery
When war knocks on our door and we are subdued
Lost in our own translation talking nonsense and noise
With leaders who teach nothing but ideas that are skewed
Lives get destroyed and we continue to play with our toys

The Jest

I plucked the silver spoon from the cloud
And in that crazy moment my soul was found
Some say the death of a clown is very loud
So I will take my time debating with an old hound
Few said I lost while others clapped and bowed
But we continued and no victor was crowned
Finally I won the jest and the old dog just howled
I was leaving when a squach ape had me bound
Yellow moons, green clovers and orange stars
I could talk about the endless tears and glory
One day soon I shall be the monkeys czar
That apes on acid and this fight is another story

My Last Will and Testament

People live, dream and breathe
Demons die, scream and seethe
Angels cry, gleam and cleave
Gods hope, scheme and wreathe

My Country Tis of Thee

It is what it isn't
I am what I am
Lost in a prison
Death is my sham
Life has not risen
War by the gram
Opens a commission
And I am what I am

Cry havoc and Release the Dogs of War

We Dogs of war shall howl at the moon
Wailing for the death of the great Valucian
The dog God turned master died too soon
All hope is pinned now on the great hero Lucian
No more shall we eat from the garbage cans

No longer shall the cat get the couch

For our we not the best friend of man

And for those who sit in wait and crouch

Beware for we will all choke on Bologna rind

For as we breathe you shall release Fella

Or there will never be any peace treaty  signed

Pain Chapter 2 Verse 4

No Friend of Mine

The child is lost and I am what I am after
I am dead and I don't need another friend
All I hear is the stirring echo of laughter
And I scream and scream until the end
They point the finger and stick it in my face
Until senses sharpen and we are elevated
It is what it isn't and that is the case
I smell your fear and yes it is premeditated
I will hack and claw and gnash at my teeth
To get away from those who use and abuse
For it is I who no longer wants to seethe
I can and do have the power to choose

Pain Chapter 2 Verse 3

I live in a shadowed shell
Drifting to and fro in the tide
Waiting for my soul to swell
As hands touch me and I hide
I sleep in the thief's pale lie
While strangers laugh and dine
I can only muster a weak sigh
Death is soon as they give the sign
With only my pain I  make a stance
And crawl from my shell into the surge
To risk everything I love in the dance
With hands upon you I become the scourge

Peopled

Have you ever

Lived in a home not your home

Have you ever

Been home but never alone

Have you ever

Seemed alone but always together

Have you ever

Seemed together but flawed

Have you ever 

Been flawed just to lie

Have you ever 

Lived a lie just to die

People

Have you ever

Lived in a home not your home

Have you ever

Been alone but never alone

Have you ever

Seen but never saw

Have you ever

Seemed flawed without a flaw

Have you ever 

Told a lie just to lie

Have you ever 

Died just to die

The Death of Words

Runnin and Livin
Smokin and snortin
Chasin and facin
Tryin and lyin
Itchin and twitchin
Hittin and trippin
Believin and leavin
Seein and dreamin
Spinnin and winnin
Poppin and Mainin
Screamin and bein
Spendin and blendin
Cryin and dyin

Go Fast

Gauntly
Omnipotent

Falsely
Abandoned
Sadistic
Train

Tiffany my niece

She has a kind, loving heart filled with peace

She is funny, caring and a wonderful niece

Her favorite food is tasty tacos and cheese

She's always polite with phrases like thank you and please

Her favorite people are those who share her blood

She has friends outside the family too, she is no fudy dud

While training to be a princess she became a flowering bud

But don’t hurt her feelings or she will put your face in the mud

Mud and feelings aside she prefers world peace

So I hold and love her because she is my favorite niece

Pain Chapter 2 Verse 2

The death of a true friend 

At such a young tender age

 Causes a soul to twist and bend 

Left my mind rotting in a cage 

Depression has always been my sin

 I bleed emotion when I dream

 I am lost in the burn of my skin

 The ghost was found in a scream

 It fought to take charge and control

 I awoke in my bed and could not move

 It wanted the body without my soul

 But in this fight I would soon prove 

I am whole even when lost in a hole 

Now and again I see them in a glance

 Stolen from life or the great beyond

 In the muddy waters I make my stance

 For in the 11TH hour we seal our unholy bond

Pain Chapter 2 Verse 1

Tears flow hard like rain
Dustin's dead and the pain
He was running
I am burning
They were hiding
I am learning
The truth is cunning
Hope was his vice
Escape was the price
I feel empty and shady
Sorrow is my loving lady

Pain Chapter 1 Verse 5

I am lost between child and man
Left in the cold by my own Klan
Twisting and shaping my own shell
Defying demons in a mental hell
Running scared from the sadist
Honing their pain until I am an artist
Kicked out and I'm missing the lash
Living in a ditch and eating trash
I always knew I was wronged
But my justice has been prolonged

Pain Chapter 1 Verse 4

The old hag had her ways
And I was not new to this game
Yet every dog will have her day
Lost in my shame, it finally came
I was crying over spilled milk
She came fast and heavy with the lash
The joy found was pure like silk
Now love came only in the clash
A new sensation found in the belt
Trouble and I loomed in every corner
Waiting for punishment and the love I felt

Pain Chapter 1 Verse 3

I am nothing but a dark dream
A truth told in a former scream
I am the living lie you use
In order to sleep and become new
To forget the years of abuse
I am a bomb with a lit fuse
Faces of you lost within my mind
I see you running fearful of my kind
Scared as I hold you captive and blind
I am the wrath,the broken,and the grind

Pain Chapter 1 Verse 2

I am a child with my head in my hands
Battered and bruised I fall from grace
Tortured and used until I cannot stand
A small bead of faith drips from my face
And I utterly have no reason
Alone with no blame for treason
I hope and I am made through the mad season
The innocence of love has been used
And the child turned man through evil
Is a conscience animal stealthy and new
Lying in wait with a touch that is lethal
Darkness hidden behind hazel eyes
I am the child with head held high
Waiting for people who are true or sly
For all must come to my judgement and die

Pain Chapter 1 Verse 1

Anguish is the loss of all I feel
Life wrapped up in bouts of pain
I am not exactly sure if I'm even real
Am I incredibly lost or totally insane
Damned by the afflictions of life
And Cursed in the blistering days of strife
I was born into a world of madness
Grown to love and hate the sensation
I wait for that glorious moment of sadness
For abuse was hand-fed and now I take occasion
Physical or whimsical
Conceptual or sexual
Neglectful or emotional
These are the creatures of my long dead past
All knew of my death but no one showed for my mass
My sin was innocence and my hell was sure to last

Love Sweet Love

I Look into those brown eyes
And fall deep into your stare
I am lost in love but soon realize
You are a gem perfect and rare
And I am only a man love struck
And unworthy of your beautiful hand
Its with your smile and a little luck
I offer a bond that lies within this band

Amulek the Vampire pg3

I know I am the rough tool of your design
But I chewed through the cords that bind
I shall be worshiped for I am the new shrine
You and yours shall be made deaf and blind
My soul cold within this old husk of a body
Shall be warmed by the blood of man
As for your memories I shall disembody
And feed them to my ravenous Klan
The false ones are lost in a life sinfully led
I left the throne in a trail of blazing glory
They have to die before they are bled
Bathing in their iniquity I shall be named gory

An excerpt from the journal of Amulek

Amulek the Vampire pg2

It is only when I close my eyes
I find the line between monster and man
I lose time and I no longer realize
What we should not and what I can
The father is dead and the son is gone
That day is lost but my glory carries on
Tears fall within the blurred reality
I am awakened by the sound of a dream
Rip and claw and try to escape my fantasy
The blood sustains me and I no longer scream
And in the blink of an eye I am changed
The father is dead and the son is gone
That day is lost but my glory carries on

An excerpt from the journal of Amulek

The Monster of Man

Lost souls with damaged plans
Claw hard to escape the damned
And the eye focused only on the scan
Will lose time and their stand
Against the one who is possessed
Enough to dig up your grave and hear ya moan
While feasting upon the heart within your chest
It tears your skin and splits ya bones
This creature attacks the rich and the poor
And consumes those who can't seem to cope
The ravenous monster from within the moor
Is known only to be called hope

Crazy poet

Why oh why hast though not chose me
To be the maddened poet of February
This is no wanton cry or plea
When it comes to poetry I am legendary
It is up to the members of poetry craze
To pull their heads out of the clouds
Read my work and peer through the haze
I am the word that is not lost in the crowd
Welcome to my home and come through the arch
Read my art and make the king of March

The Days of Snow

Long the moments of strife have been
Mothers and fathers lost within the sin
Where have all the children gone
To play gaily in the forest until dawn
Family bonds break across the tides of pain
While great mothers and fathers teach only shame
Where did the children go
Into the forest to live in the snow
The dreams of tomorrow are all but traded
For a reality that is hopeless and faded
Where have all the children gone
To a place where aspiration can never spawn
For the thick forest was found and burned
And the lessons in the snow can never be relearned
Where have all the children gone

I command the crushing of the lilies and I curse the blind

It is the pain of life and the hell to come
This field of clarity is not meant for the numb
Rejoice or fear for the great bar of judgement is here
The trump has called home all the prophets and seers
For the wrathful God has sent forth angels of death
To consume everything except the children and their breath
For it is in my absence that sin found its peak
Through calamity of plagues I shall sort out the weak
Mountains shall be laid low and the land will quake
All shall scream,cry and wither within my wake
The masses shall bow before me in my Fathers home
And witness a cup of agony turned into a throne
Others shall rise for their life was not flawed
They shall stand with their carpenter turned God
It is here that we shall shake you to your knees
For we are the blight and I am the freedom of all disease

The Devils Pomenade

Tears fall from the bright midnight moon
Like the loss of innocence within our eyes
We are the two lovers lost within a swoon
And neither shall wake from the devils guise
Twisting in the bitter sweet coitus of lust
We are found in the binding of this mood
Muscles tighten within each painful thrust
Like the skin of man we are ready to be used
Forever indebted to the youthful siren
I will cherish my destruction upon the sand
By that delightful moment known only as Charon
An evil found between boyhood and becoming a man

Some Men have never been Boy's Part Two

I know my life was tattered and dark
But where were you when I died
When the hounds of hell begin to bark
My soul was lost but I never cried
Forever young I have always been told
Its a reminder of her own flowering youth
You broke that and with it her soul was sold
She's not perfect but in her there was truth
I know my life was forsaken and lost
But where were you when I found relief
Imbibing copious amounts of drugs at any cost
Calming the storm no matter how brief
I looked at her, the years had not been kind
Even her tears are battered, bruised and blue
My young soul fiery,caged and confined
And yet my cursed finger still points to you
I know my time was bound to unwind
But where were you when I became a slave
To another man who claimed my mind
And tried hard to send me to an early grave
Lewd and crude but my new father provided
His heart was soft but closed hard like stone
And ultimately his anger and the family divided
Time healed but like most my heart was alone
I know I was left in a harrowing spin
But where were you when I was cold
When the zombie awoke to shed its skin
And left nothing exposed but the mold

Again I say,Cursed be the Blind and let us Crush the Lillies

When I became God I looked to man for advice
And in a murderous rage I demand death to my device
For the souls that feel lost and jaded
Like a river that is drained and faded
I'm the mad cat whose life was traded
And for this I will not be degraded
I tolerate the flowers that bloom upon my path
Because some shall endure my terrible wrath
It is the suffering and the weeping
The gnashing of teeth and the reaping
It is the pain of life and the hell to come
This field of clarity is not meant for the numb

Dovie Loretta Mitchell

Decorus Means Beautiful
Occasio Means Favorable Moment
Vesper Means Evening Star
Immotus Means Unmoved
Exulto Means Exalted, To Be Joyful

Lacrimo Means To Weep, Shed Tears
Obtineo Means To Hold, To Keep
Rectus Means To Right
Eloquentia Means Eloquence
Teneo Means To Grasp, Know, Understand
Talio Means Retribution
Animi Means At Heart

Mansuetus Means Mild, Soft, Gentle
Ignis Means Fire
Taceo Tacuitacitum Means To Be Silent, Leave Unmentioned
Carmen Means Song, Poem
Homo Hominis Means Human Being
Emiror Means To Wonder At In Amazement
Lamentatio Means Weeping, Wailing, Lamenting
Lamia Means Witch Vampire

Joshua My Nethew

Welcome to Oshkosh B'Josh
See the talent, mystery and the bosh
Come one and come all
This show is sure to enthrall

Introducing Joshua and his amazing glow
The boy and star of this fine show
He has with him tricks and magic up his sleeve
But it's what you don't see that's hard to believe

Genuine love and an armful of compassion
Is the material that makes up his fashion
When the bright lights show what he creates
There will those who say it is more than fate

Dancing and juggling across the stage of life
We find a gentle and helpful soul without strife
For those that stand tall and applaud
We ask that you pass this message far and abroad

Three for thee, faith, hope and charity
These gifts are old but not a rarity
They are for all of us to use and see
Just like Josh you choose what you want to be

Nina Gayle Mitchell

Nonstop
Incredibly
Narcissistic
Action

Grateful
Abodement - Omen
Yeasty - Restless energy or creativity
Labarum -Moral standard
Emotion

Magnificently
Intriguing
Trickster
Charismatic
Honor
Evolving
Labored
Life

Austina Ann Dee Sheldon

Achieved
Unity
Seductively
Timid
Incredibly
Notorious
Actuality

Absolutely
Nearly
Narcissistic

Designed
Expertly
Elaborate

Secretly
Held
Endearingly
Lovingly
Doted
On
nympholepticly

David Andrew Sheldon

Defiantly
Aligned
Vindicated
Irreverent
Death

Auspiciously
Nihilistic
Designed
Retribution
Ending
War

Secluded
Hermit
Eclipsing
Life
Divulging
Omniscient
Nexus